So last week I posted a little bit about how I was expecting a plateau. Well, expecting something doesn’t always make it suck less… I’m down less than 0.5 lbs this week, and despite the fact that I keep trying to remind myself of all the reasons this shouldn’t get me down (I’m on my period, my body is readjusting to a healthier way of eating, stairs are getting a LOT easier so obviously I’m doing something right, etc. etc. etc.)… it’s still kind of a bummer.
I know you’re not supposed to obsess over the scale. I know these things take time and blah blah blah. But the hard fact is – in no world is 215 lbs a good weight for a woman of my height (5’8″) to be. My goal weight is actually still significantly above the healthy weight range according to the BMI (because we all know that the BMI is totally bogus). And like everyone else, I am a creature of instant gratification – which is what got me into this mess in the first place.
Our entire culture is geared towards the concept that easier and faster is better, and that nothing that requires hard work or commitment is worth doing. Think about this with me for a minute. There are commercials out there for products that claim, verbatim, to help you lose weight (specifically body fat!) without working out or changing how you eat. There’s a pill out there claiming to do exactly what I’m trying to accomplish, but without all of the sweat and frustration of how I’m doing it. And there’s an instant solution for everything. Low self esteem? You must be depressed, take a pill. Kid not doing well in school? Must have ADHD, take a pill. Or maybe the kid is rebellious and argumentative. We call that oppositional defiance disorder and let’s give them some antipsychotics.
And then this instant-solution mindset starts to take over everything else in our lives.
Fighting with your spouse? Get a divorce. Fighting with your boss or coworkers? Quit your job. Want a bigger house? Here, have a bigger mortgage. Car, clothes, coffee – want, want, want, – now, now, now. We don’t work for anything anymore, and because of that, we don’t value anything either. You can see it everywhere – a byproduct of the incredibly entitled, lazy, narcissistic generation we find ourselves in the midst of.
Ok, that got a little deep there. My point is – I’m bummed out, but that doesn’t mean that quitting is a good idea. Instead, I’ve decided to use this week to try and remember the following things:
1) Do things on purpose. Going for a walk? Concentrate on using the muscles in your calves as much as possible. Making supper? Take a moment to really think about the food you’re making and the people who will eat it. Is it good fuel? Will it help their bodies and yours? When you do things on purpose, those things become more meaningful – and life doesn’t “just happen” to you anymore.
2) Appreciate more, demand less. So the result I’m getting isn’t exactly what I wanted, when I wanted, how I wanted. I KNEW that the pace couldn’t keep up with week 1. What I need to do is appreciate the fact that I can get to the top of the stairs of the waterslide without wheezing; I can go for over 30 minutes on the elliptical; I can lift up my son with ease. I’m trying to find the grace in every day.
There was a third thing, but at the moment, I don’t remember it. If I ever do I’ll come back and edit this.
As always, thanks for reading!